I've been in recovery for over 3 months now. It hasn't been easy, and I still have a rough road ahead of me. But, I recently had an experience that showed me how much I've actually changed my "stinking thinking" and rewired my brain some.

A person that I acted out with (and who exposed my secret life) contacted me and said that they are willing to continue what we were doing. My first, instinctive response to her was "NO"! I didn't think twice about it. I told her that I was totally committed to my recovery and I only have two choices - be a better person that is living clean from my impulses and behaviors, or just exist to chase the high until I die.

Of course, a little later my Addict was screaming in my head about how I could do this, because I still keep things secret if she was willing to go along and nothing had to change. But my Rational Mind was able to stay in charge and tell my Addict that our recovery was more important and we have done too much work to just throw it all away. And finally, I realized that I like who I am today a whole lot more than who I was 3 months ago.

So, yes, we can rewire our brains, we are not destined to remain locked in our twisted thinking and impulses. However, I know I can't ever let up or get complacent, because my Addictive Mind will always be there to jump in and take over if I'm not vigilant.

But, I'm going to take a short victory lap because all of my hard work in recovery paid off and I can see what is possible for me - a life free of this addiction.