37m here , longtime lurker of this sub but first time poster. been with my wife for about 12 years and I’ve been a sex addict probably for my entire adulthood. Although it’s just come to the surface in the last couple years or so when I truly became aware of it. I quit drinking (alcoholic) around that time and gained a lot more clarity about who I am and why I am the way I am

When it comes to sex , I have an incredibly high sex drive and my wife understands me and has sex with me almost daily ( I don’t think she truly needs it that often ) I look at porn off and on but I’ve never been a big porn guy. ( for reference I also haven’t masturbated in 2 years ) the only sexual gratification I get is through sex itself. The problem lies in the fact that I am always looking at other women sexually , desiring , fantasizing, and generally lusting .. the thrill of the hunt and subsequent sexting that follows gives me a high. Even though I have a great wife who does everything she can to satisfy me. She deserves better. Yes I’ve been talking to a therapist but sort of at the beginning stages of that and jumping into sexual addiction etc. I feel a lot of shame and don’t understand. Most posts I see here from men involve porn addiction and incessant masturbation where I’m only satisfied by the real thing. Don’t know how to handle this anymore !