Ive been wanting to get help for my sex addiction but didn't know what to do and now I crossed a line. I'm 21 and since I was around 15 Id watch porn like most teenage boys do. At first it started off tame and simple but as I grew and got more depressed I began to rely on porn to feel good. I eventually went and got help for my depression and am in therapy and on medication for that but recently I've started to have problems with porn and sex in general. I would masturbate and watch porn every day, sometimes 2 or 3 times a day. The porn I watched also started to get darker and twisted. After I would masturbate, I'd hate myself and wanna stop but didn't know what to do. Today, as I'm writing this, I crossed a line. I'm on vacation and I was home alone and bored. I probably have masturbated already 3 times today and wanted to keep going. So I chose to go to one of those Asian spas and got the happy ending. I'm ashamed of myself and feel like a monster. I don't know what to do but I know I need help. What should I do.