I've been averaging 3-4 hours of sleep. As of lately I'm only getting 2 1/2 hours before I find myself awake stuck in bed and having trouble going back to sleep. I've taken medicine to help me sleep and I have a feeling it all started after I took the meds. I've stopped taking them but the restlessness persists.

My awareness of my own loneliness does not make it any easier either. I suffer from depression and sleeping in an empty bed is really high up on my list of triggers or things that keep me in a funk. My mind constantly fires up when I'm laying in bed stuck and awake, it exhausts my body but it doesn't let me rest.

There is nothing I want more right now than to hold a woman close and feel the rise and fall of her breathing, her head against my chest, and a place for my arms to wrap around. I hate sleeping alone and I hate waking up alone.

Sorry for the rant.