Don’t know if this would be the best page to ask this but from the title I have such bad trust issues I don’t even trust my mother. I sleep with a knife next to me I haven’t bought a shotgun yet but I could and keep that next to me. I think that would be a little extreme but I’m very cautious of my actions and scarce of how I act. I want to know how can I sleep lighter so if I heard something I could immediately wake up and be ready. I’ve had some events that lead up to me not trusting whom I live with so that’s why I’m like this. Every day I sleep I wait till everyone is asleep and the night is asleep. Crazy right ik I boarder up my door and practice scenarios of how I could take down someone who tried anything. Maybe I need a little help but being a little too cautious never hurt anyone. The real question is for someone with experience someone really cautious and scared of peoples intentions what did you do to feel safe? Would anyone like to agree their story’s?

I don’t know where to put this but I was replying to people about this and one told me to put this in here cause people would take it more seriously but it’s basically talking about the first physical altercation I got in to.

This person in the place I stay doesn’t like to talk things out instead it’s a put your hands up and shut up kind of situation but the first time I wasn’t given a warning. They straight up grabbed me by my throat and slammed me to the ground and choked me till I saw nothing. When I woke up nobody was home and I didn’t know how long I’d been out out for but it pissed me off and made me a lil scared cause I had never been in a fight and I was young with 0 type of survival instincts. The other times I stood my ground and I was actually able to throw some hits in but you can’t win them all.