I've never been with a man sexually, and from the outside, I look like your typical masculine blue-collar guy - a military vet, 6'2" tall, deep voice. No one would assume I think about this, I don't fit the bill, but deep down I've got these inner desires that really conflicts me

Since I was an adolescent, I've fantasized about being another man's possession. I want to be disciplined and disrespected, get talked down to, roughed up when I mess up, ordered to do physical or domestic labor, be used as a footrest or doormat. I didn't exactly sign up for this..

When I was young I thought those desires may go away, but a decade later and they haven't. Why am I like this? I'm not sure if I should act on them or even how to? I'm just at a crossroads. Sometimes I get upset that I feel this way but I can't run from it.