My wife and I are starting a trial separation this week and today is my first night. This is absolute torture. When I left our house earlier she just sat on the couch sticky like this was not phasing her at all. She is the one that wanted the separation after all but after 13 years of being together and 7 years of marriage you would think there would be some emotions but nothing.

I am a wreck right now and not really able to reach out to anyone because we both agreed we were not ready to tell friends or family. That’s why I’m making this post because I just need to get it out to someone and looking for some guidance or advice. I really want to work on reconciliation and working through our problems but she told me she no longer sees a future with me.

I know it is only my first night of this and it seems like it’s almost impossible that it will get any better.