I hate myself. Every physical thing about myself I despise. And idk why to do. I’ve recently gained a lot of weight in a short amount of time and it’s just made things worse. I feel (and it’s proven) so unwanted. I’m a fat dark skin black woman with natural 4a hair. I look in the mirror and I get nauseous from my own reflection. I’m 26 and I’ve never had a boyfriend or anything close to it. I don’t know how to “fake it till I make it”. I can’t pretend to be okay when I hate literally everything about myself. If I think to long and hard about it, about the fact that I’m u lovable. Then I just want to end it. Not to mention the fact that I’m tainted (someone lied to me and I was diagnosed with HSV-2 in 2020). Like a diseased short fat darkskin woman with kinky hair. No one wants that! On the inside, I’m a good person and I have so much to give (I’m also a great lay lol) but no one would ever know because we live in a the world of social media and the kardashians where all that matters is looks and first impressions. And off first glance? I’m fucking ugly. Anyway I just needed to rant. If you relate let’s talk. And if you have any advice on how to stop feeling like garbage about myself, I’m all ears.