It sucks knowing that if it weren’t for the fact that I was there when his crush rejected him that we would never be together. He likes me for me now but it just doesn’t feel like enough. If he were asked to describe his ideal girl not a single feature would match who I am. He would never pick my small “east west” boobs. He would never choose a girl with no figure. No curves. He wouldn’t choose such a skinny girl. He wouldn’t choose my skin color. He wouldn’t choose my small lips, big nose, disproportionately big eyes. He wouldn’t choose my height. He wouldn’t choose my hip dips. Nothing about me is ideal. Everything about me is just so undesirable. I don’t even care that he loves me for my personality now. I feel so worthless as long as I look like this. I’m so ugly. My face is ugly. My body is ugly. What’s the point of being alive as long as I look like this?