Im pathetic. Useless. Mistake prone. Careless, immature, irresponsible, emotionally unbalanced, abusive, im a literal peice of shit.

I do nothing but disappoint. I am nothing more than a burden. An oxygen thief. Im completely devoid of value. Which is probably why ive never wasted the effort to end myself. That and cowardice.

Ive never been able to make those around me happy, to maintain functional relationships. To not be a shitty person. I am beyond redemption, undeserving of any sort of emotion, contact, acknowledgement. Cause i only end up ruining everything i touch. Ruining it until its pathetic, myopic, and useless... like me...