I am so ugly I can't look at myself in the mirror I'm tired of trying to avoid the photos of myself online. Life's really not worth it, it's not worth it if you're as ugly as me. I just want to stop my existence and escape from how ugly I am. I can't escape from myself I can't run away. I feel so caged.

My face is too wide and when I speak my nose looks so ugly and my face is filled with fat but I'm sick of thinking about it talking about it I don't know how to embrace my ugliness. I would get plastic surgery right in this second if I could. It costs too much but I feel so miserable living like this

And like at first I thought I was ugly because of weight, that was partially true and then I thought it was my nose and now I realise it's everything combined like it's literally my every single feature the way my face moves when I talk, my mimics it's everything combined and even surgery can't fix that

and it's affecting my life so much, I'm 19 and I can't keep living like this anymore. I don't know how to live with myself. I just want this to stop I don't want to exist anymore