I seem to just be so ugly and annoying that everyone would be better had they never seen me or known me. I am a fat man, I don't eat poorly honestly I mainly am overweight due to a blood condition and poor metabolism but everyone assumes I'm lazy and dumb. I probably sicken people, women especially and they have enough shit to deal with without having to worry I'm a creep because I look like a neckbeard. I just want to close myself off and not hurt anyone anymore. Nobody wants to talk to me at university and my friends are getting sick of me. My parents hate me and my sister has her own shit to worry about. I don't know what I expect posting this I just need someone to know what I am thinking.