I've been going back and forth on if I want to carry a baby or not (but no baby yet either way as I'm not financially stable for it) but I think I do want to carry, I'm like 90% sure of it but understandably I'm terrified I've tried talking to my girlfriend about it but it ended up in her feeling very hurt, dysphoric and we cried together for probably an hour... Me being pregnant would be very dysphoric for her (as well as her mindset being "baby in body = parasite" isn't helping) and idk what to do, we both want biological kids, surrogacy isn't legal here (and even if it becomes legal idk if I want to go there even tho that's what we have said we would do)

How/what should I do? :(

Random: I would like to be a fairly young parent (under 30) my parents where 40 when I was born and they couldn't play with me as they simply didn't have the energy to and their bodies hurt too much....