Hey guys, this is just a story about cruising, sort of, last night (Monday) in the outskirts of Edinburgh and also an apology in the very unlikely coincidence that the guy is reading this. It's a bit too long and basically action-less, so skip if that isn't for you.

Just for context, I have a partner and he is abroad this week. I was always curious about cruising and public play in general. However, it's just to watch as I'm a bit of a voyeur, I respect my bond and I don't want to cross the physical barrier. Also, I'm shy with people, so it can be a bit awkward for me to interact with someone I don't know.

Cruising-wise, I haven't actively done it, at least properly. The maximum I have done is at the beach, walking past some bushes where I knew some cruising happened or visiting public toilets and visibly wanking in the stall while getting turned on by someone wanking as well.

So after all that introduction, the actual story is that I was checking nearby gay cruising places online and one of the links, from a cruising platform, showed a secluded car park, just off A7, with regular cruisers in the last few days. A bit nervous and at the same time excited, I then decided to check it out and see if there was any action at all. Also, it was a fairly nice night despite being a bit cold, so it was the perfect opportunity.

I was pretty convinced the place would be dead as it seemed remote and quite small on Google Maps. I turned right off the main road to a totally dark car park and I started having a look. I didn't see a single soul until, to my surprise, there was a car at the end of it. At this point, I was not fully sure of what I should do, so I just parked next to it with two spaces of distance. It was pitch black, just slightly lit by the moon, and all I could see, barely, was that someone was in the car. So, I decided to stay put. Not long after, he left the car for what seemed to be a smoke. He stayed on his side of the car so I couldn't see much. I just started using my phone while keeping an eye in case he showed off or something, but he got back in the car not long after.

I decided to check the cruising site again and no one was shown there, but it was now publicly pinning me at that location. I continued to keep a look but truly I couldn't see much. The maximum I could see was his phone screen lighting up a couple of times but not much more. I then decided when the clock hit 8pm I would leave. Twenty minutes of waiting would be enough and as I couldn't see anything happening in his car it would probably be a good idea to just go.

Ding, 8pm! Time to go then. I started the car and as I could see him checking his phone again, I decided to check the site again before leaving. Surprise, surprise, the place was now showing 2 cruisers! I tried to check the profile but it was an anonymous one. Right at this point he gets out of the car and slowly goes around it and stops at the back closer to me. I think he was trying to see what I was doing. I couldn't see him clearly but he seemed like a fit guy, around my age (30-something) and overall good looking.

"What do I do now?" was rushing through my mind at this point while my pulse raced... That was a clear signal he was up for something physical, I just had to step out of my car or give him some kind of a sign. He seemed to wait for a bit without any action and meanwhile I just went back to his profile to check if I could message him at all but it didn't seem possible as his profile was anonymous or because I didn't have a plus account.

I then decided to just leave and right at the same time he also seemed to decide to get back to his car. I guess, with my awkward behaviour, he understood I was not there to fuck him or let him fuck me. I finally left and just drove to a few Longniddry Bents beach car parks that were also mapped as cruising places, in case I could see any public action there. No luck either, just a few scattered cars but nothing my eyes could pick up.

Before I end, I just want to apologize. If by a cosmic coincidence you are reading this and the experience rings a bell about last night then I just want to say sorry. Sorry for wasting your time and being awkward and a bit of a sex kill.