Hi all

I’ve been seeing a Scorpio man causally on and off for years now. It started out as a fwb situation, and evolved into wanting something deeper. The timing was always off (for many reasons), and we saw other people.

He recently came out to reveal his feelings of wanting to pursue something more. I had not seen him in months (due to distance). We met to see how it felt to be with each other in person after so long.

Everything was going well, until he wanted to go back to my place. We have always hooked up in a car due to my previous living situation involving an abusive ex. When I shut it down, he shut down. The date ended abruptly.

He texted he wouldn’t want to talk for awhile because he was hurt. It was because I hadn’t let him in. I had a few drinks in me (not an excuse) and immediately said I don’t want to talk anymore. I was blocked right away. Tried calling and left a voicemail anyways. I wrote him a letter the next day, and then thought to text him from my work phone after that. I know it’s a lot. There’s so much backstory to all of this that’s not included.

He got back and said he appreciated my words, but needed time to heal. I left a heartfelt text and asked if there’s hope for the future. He said there is, but that this was emotionally exhausting for him and he really needed space. I told him to take as much time as he needs and I’ll be working on myself.

I want some context into how much time that may be. He won’t be back in my state until May. I also don’t think he’d say there’s hope if there isn’t, but would like some insight in general. Our connection is real and I knew going in I need to work on myself first, but didn’t want to pass up an opportunity to see him. I also want to have realistic expectations. I know everyone is different and he may still be processing, but things definitely feel different as of now.

TLDR: I want the love of my life back