Question ::

Is Mami always vague? Does anyone else struggle to communicate with her directly? Why did she refuse to speak, yet be present?

Background information ::

I’ve been working with Santísima, mami, for 3 years now and it’s been nothing but a wonderful experience. Mami has become a core part of my life and our relationship has grown amazingly. Not without its tribulations of course, but amazing nonetheless.

I’ve gotten to a point in my journey and devoutness where I can feel when she’s here, minor communication happens, and she is active in my life. However, lately, while she blesses me with her presence and does everything I’ve mentioned, she seems to be trying to teach me something.

I cannot for the life of me talk to mami, I don’t know if it’s a blockage internally, or if she upset, or if she is trying to teach me something. Yes I can have brief mental conversations with mami, but other than that nothing. I don’t know how to fix that or begin to understand.

However, last night, for the first time I’ve had direct communication with mami. My best friend and partner has an ability to be a vessel when connecting to others dieties in many different ways. Last night a ritual was done, and we both confirmed that she was there and present, but she did not want to speak. There was no negative emotions present from what was felt, just that she wasn’t going to speak. This came right after we spoke to my second diety, and we both had a full conversation and my questions were answered.

After some talking and persistence, she asked me the following questions on paper.

“What is my role?”

“Then why doubt?”

“Once you stop doubting, you will begin to find what you seek.”

Don’t get me wrong, I have an idea of what this means regarding my situation. I just don’t understand why she doesn’t want to talk to me, even when the other parts of my devotion seem to be progressing fine.

Another part, that I think is important to note, while unorthodox, I’ve begun working with another diety who has seemingly been in my life as long as mami has. There have been some issues regarding his presence and what his intentions are. However I have made it a point that mami is and always will be on top in every situation and she is my highest priority. I’m not sure if these interactions have upset mami in some way.

I’m not sure if any of those helps, but any guidance or advice from others in this situation would be much appreciated to help me navigate this and continue to show mami how much she means to me!

All love💛