Original Post:

We put our books aside. Before we drift off to sleep I tell you I cracked another kilo on my weight loss journey. You're happy for me but also, some insecurities are welling up in you. You pinch your belly, your brows furrow...

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Content Warning: There is talk of weight loss (on my part. I'm not suggesting it for you. It's not about that), of feeling helpless about eating habits, and about shame associated with eating and with weight. If you know of yourself you're prone to spiral when you hear this sort of thing, skip this audio! You don't owe anyone to let them confront your weight or eating habits, even if it's out of love.

You may like my previous audio instead, which is for bigger women but doesn't harp on the "issue". I'm just horny for you and we fuck!

If, however, you feel it would do you good to hear a caring, protective guy tell you (why) he's not judging you, and that your caloric intake is just a trivia stat on your baseball card to him and doesn't affect how much he loves you, then please enjoy the audio. And if you make it through all the talking, you'll have more than earned the sexy part. Mwah! :*

Retrospective:

The "fupa" thing wasn't part of the request but frankly, these audios are as much for me as for anyone else and whenever I watch a bigger woman masturbate, it fascinates me when that area is a bit pillowy and she sorts of grabs hold of it and pulls it up to get it out of the way of where she really needs to feel herself. It's pretty. And I imagine how it would feel to rest my head there, have it pushed into her or just sink in a little because my head is heavy, and I feel that softness on my upper cheeks, or over my eyes. :sighs: It's pretty.

This was one take. I think I edited out one "you know" because it sounded awkward to me but I left everything else, including the moments where I struggled for words a bit. I feel that's just authentic. It's not supposed to be a radio broadcast but a heart-to-heart, eh? I've been thinking about some of the body positive or body-who-gives-a-fuck things a lot because I need them for myself too so they flowed easily. I'm fairly sure it's the right path to take, to preserve your happiness and dignity but it's hard not stumbling off of it when you're pelted with shame from the sides all the time. Helps a lot to have a lover who's on your side.

I'm on a "weight loss journey" at the moment. Whenever there's a plateau as water weight fluctuates, new set points are settled or frankly, I fuck up - whatever it is - I get really frustrated with myself and a lot of the shame from my past keeps flooding back. It really helps whenever the next moment arrives when the weight drops again. Any little success motivates a lot. I recently found out I can comfortably close the zipper on my angler vest again and I got sleeveless shirts several sizes (!) lower than my usual attire and they fit well. :3 Makes it a lot easier for me to see my progress because they're not obfuscating my shape as much as my former shirts. So that gave me a big boost.

Anyway, now I'm rambling. Long story short, fairly personal audio. Proud of it. I hope it does you all good too.