Original Post:

You want to move on after your assault. Maybe start dating again. But you're worried about getting triggered with a new partner. So you hire a male escort to see how it feels to get back on the horse again, if you will.

We meet in a room in my usual hotel. You explain your situation to me and ask for the Boyfriend Experience. BFE or not, however, sex would still be rather casual, compared to sex with a partner... So I suggest we take a nap together first. Get you used to me. Build intimacy. You can't fall asleep in someone's arms and not feel close to them. After that we can have sex.

^{..or, if you're impatient, the sex starts at 22:52.}

The Nap:

At 22:49 we take our nap together. In the audio I skip past that. I say Goodnight, there's a pause implying the time-skip and then we wake up again. If you would like to have an actual nap with me at that point, pause the audio and go here. That's the nap, just breathing and small movements. Put it on repeat and sleep with me until you feel like waking up and continuing with the main audio! :)

Aftercare:

The character's idea is to find out if she gets triggered from sex, in a safe, non-judgmental environment. Should you feel triggered at any point, please use these "aftercare" audios I made for you! :) I put "aftercare" in quotes because you don't have to wait until after the audio. More like "mid-care", eh?

Mid-care if your chest tightens and you feel afraid.

Mid-care if you get teary eyed.

If you would like a short "mid-care" audio made for another type of trigger you experience, hit me up with a Private Message or a Comment, tell me what it is you need, and I'll make it for you and add it here. :)

EDIT: Special Thanks to /u/ReluctantAttention for bringing Post-Coital Dysphoria to my attention!

Aftercare in the form of an alternate post-orgasm ending, if you experience a crash after sex where you feel depressed and ashamed.

Someone wrote me in private that they feel uneasy just sleeping next to a man without a little extra reassurance and clear parameters what goes and what doesn't. If you feel like this, please have this pre-nap mid-care. Play it at 22:49 of the main audio, when I tell you Goodnight and we go to sleep. I notice you're uncomfortable so we "negotiate" where we're ok being touched while we sleep.

If receiving oral makes you uncomfortable here is an edited version of the audio sans cunnilingus I made for a listener so you can listen without having to manually skip over that part.

Retrospective:

I don't like when audios are condescending and it's especially a problem with niche audios like this. What I wanted to avoid was an audio that's just coddling. It had to feel like actual sex, from gentle to rough.

The character wants to experience sex so I didn't want to make it a stylized, shortened or too sickly sweet or pornified thing but as close to real-time sex as I could make it, so the listener can share the character's journey. That's why it's so long but I think it's worthwhile not despite but because of that.

EDIT: The original post on GWA has garnered quite a few comments, some of them from survivors. If you're on the fence about listening, I encourage you to have a look around over there. Hear from others in similar situations. May help to see you're far from alone. :)