Ok, so I'm going to preface this with the fact that me and my wife hadn't been getting along too well before this experience (My fault mostly, because I'm a dumb stubborn asshole) More prefacing, I've wanted to explore psychadelics, mostly from a Psychonautics aspect and for healing of my SSRI resistant depression.

So we've had a rough day and we're not getting along and I'm finally got my kids to bed and wife is like "I'm just going to bed, I can't life right now."

So I tried doing the salvia sublingual and that sucks, and I purchased a water pipe and was smoking the dried salvia normal dried leaves and I'm noticing some visual distortions after hitting it and holding it a while and nothing too much.

By the way, an aside... feel free to imagine my white nerdy ass learning first hand how to NOT take in two lungs full of freshly stoked up HOT water pipe smoke, and gagging and choking like a lil bitch. XD I've never smoked ANYTHING in my life until now, nothing. The closest I've come to smoking was when the campfire smoke decided to follow me around as a boyscout man.

So, kids are asleep, wife has checked out, and I'm like "Finally I can fucking trip." I reach for the X15 extract I bought at the same time, deciding that clearly the base Salvia isn't doing much for me at all.

I'm sure you can see my mistake, dear viewer; I'm a dumbass and have forgotten that set and setting are a thing. Even after reading about it and making it personal mantra, still made the mistake.

I take a hit and I can tell immediately this stuff is different. My hands start buzzing, or like shaking, something like that, and I'm like "Ok, I think its starting, time for another hit."

I breathe out after holding the 2nd hit like 30 seconds and I IMMEDIATELY realize something. Well, sorta. The EXISTENCE that I was now a part of more or less slipped into my mental zeitgeist as if it was just the way things have always been.

I look down at the water pipe and the whole world is like... 3d but if 3d was upgraded to 3d plus but not full 4d. The Computer screen at my desk and everything on it started developing weird 3d textures. The overtone for everything in my vision was like the tim burton style sort of macabre, spooky and surreal. The water pipe in my hand FEELS alive, like its a part of my body, like a big elephant trunk that is attached to me. I then experience WATCHING myself hit the pipe for the third time completely autonomously (dissociation hard core) and its like I'm in this macabre Claymation more-real-than-real scary place and I just feel... alone and I watch my self set the bong down... like sadly?

I look over to my left and I'm like. "honey?"

I look to the door of my office and there's nobody there. Like, I know my wife went to bed, but for some reason I expected her to be there to let me know everything was ok and she just WASN'T there.

In that moment I think I must have been at like the breakthrough threshold because I could look to my left and the real world was sort of there and slammed my foot down, trying to ground myself. I realized that I was going into a trip and it was NOT A GOOD ONE and I was being so stupid and I didn't have my wife with me not just in person but spiritually and I NEEDED her.

To my right the world was this sad tim burton depression hell-scape and I remember my fingers on my right hand squirming around and trying to take root in my fucking desk. I picked my hand up and shook it and it was like my had remembered it wasn't supposed to be doing that. hahahah (this was the only funny part). Even the calming music in my headphones was like a funeral dirge.

I threw my head back to the left and just started breathing in and out and in and out, thinking that if I just oxygenated my blood enough I could pass this faster (Not correct even remotely) But eventually this feeling of being tugged between two worlds slowly came down and I was able to get up.

I went down stairs and me and the wife opened up and I apologized because I knew I had to make up with her. I dunno, just felt like it.

Salvia doesn't fuck around. That was x15....

I have x80 coming in the mail.

I'm rightly terrified.