Hello Ladies and Gents… Well mostly Gents I guess!

Firstly, no obviously not just my abs, in fact mainly not. I just wanted to point out that I have them because I’m definitely not insecure the slightest! 😂

My name is Matilde and this will probably be a little bit different to other posts, and no, not just because of my absolutely fun and bubbly personality, but also because of the arrangement I’m looking for.

Many of you must associate the idea that I want to be hurt with a naturally submissive state of being… However I don’t think that’s true at all. Well, okay maybe it is to some degree under very specific circumstances, but normally I’m not submissive at all.

I always had a rather masculine professional life, career and even hobbies I guess… and to match that I’m rather tall, strong and fairly capable, definitely not your average chick you can leash easily. And just to further that thought I don’t even wish to be leashed.

Pain to me is more like a game, a sort of playful interaction like the occasional slap on the butt is while walking home from a definitely not at all underwhelming party. I love pain, I guess you can say that I crave it on some level at least. Before I always paid careful attention to introduce it into my prior relationships, to make it an integral part of my life or at least an integral part of my free time.

Now that I’m single it’s not that straight forward, there’s no one who wants to see me struggling on a daily basis, plus I can’t really just hurt myself, I mean yes I guess I’d be able to but it’s not the same and never gonna be. And yes my occasional hookups do mitigate this issue to some degree but regardless I remain painfully “under-whipped”… I know, great terminus technicus.🤷‍♀️😅

Well, I’m posting this in the hopes of finding likeminded people to at least talk to. I mean the opportunities beyond that are rather limited online, but maybe we can figure something out if you’re creative enough. But yes ideally I’d be looking for someone who wants to find a weird kind of friend in me, or if not friend then at least an online acquaintance.

It wouldn’t hurt if you’d fancy me on some level at least, even if I’m not in pain, so if you wish you can find a few photos and other more detailed descriptions about me in my profile here.

And finally let me get into what pain is to me and what I actually like… this is gonna be relatively quick as I’m sure we will have plenty of opportunity to discuss this in private at a time when it won’t be really weird if I start soaking my underwear 😅 But in short, I’m a rather versatile woman and my body a versatile canvas… from only slightly painful and bothersome stuff, like clamps and such all the way to where I need to be restrained to some degree in order to be able to take it all, I can be up for everything with the right person. I like to think of it simply as giving up some agency over my body so be that copious amounts of pain or just some lovely pinches or even just a few hours endlessly riding a vibrator I’m all there and will suffer and suffer as long as I can… or actually even further, let’s rephrase that to as long as I need to.

Hopefully we can have some fun talks, and please if you decide to reach out do so with some substance, ideally via a direct message instead of a chat, and please let me know that you’re replying to this post, and please substance… I don’t wish to be anyone’s slave just a friend who you can try to break… I mean could try to break if this wasn’t long distance I guess, but who knows maybe there’s a way for everything.