This is something that will stay with me for my entire life.

A little info to start off, I was born as a fortune baby & my father is a devout in this organisation. He also dedicated our home for monthly discussion meetings for decades (even up till today, but recently stopped due to covid).

I remembered I was still very young, maybe 8 or 9 years old? It was a Saturday, & a discussion meeting was held at my home. At that time, my parents were trying to shakubuku my aunt & invited her to join the meeting. She brought my cousin along too & with us being kids, we just wanted to have fun playing some computer games in my brother's room.

But once the meeting ended & everyone have left, my father's face darkened in an instant & shouted at me. He then forced me to kneel in front of the gohonzon & chant for god knows how long. That amount of sheer terror & confusion I felt, was indescribable. I kept this to myself even till this day (I'm 24 now).

It is 1.26am over at my side now & this traumatic experience just suddenly came back to haunt me. I don't know why. But at least now I found out the truth about this organisation & I'm already out of there. I also had my fair share of witnessing toxic crap in the organisation as well. I always knew something isn't right when I find it so uncomfortable sharing about this SGI thing with my friends, like, I think that people will think that I'm weird or something like that, especially about SGI members chanting to that paper scroll...

Anyway, there were many other nasty things that happened to me, I guess might share more in the future. Thanks for staying with me & reading my story. Stay safe & well.