In August 2018 I told my mom that after 50K I was done with SGI due to the Ikeda focus. In a way I kept my word, even though it took 11months. Leading up to 50K, I assisted with vocal warm ups. Since the music involved using augmented second leaps for one verse and a whole minor seventh leap, I incorporated them into the warm ups. (Thank you Hanon No. 12). I really enjoyed that. If ever asked if I would ever participate in another event like 50K again, my answer would be no. Absolutely not. The one thing that turned me off at the festival were the experiences where Daisaku Ikeda was mentioned. I did not join the SGI to take part in the approbation of a diminutive Japanese man whose name is obscure compared to Yuri Kochiyama; whose words of encouragement, ghostwritten or not, fall completely flat when confronted with reality; who seeks to be placed on the same pedestal as Gandhi and Dr. King even though there is no record of him doing anything, in terms of action, that is in line with what these men have done. The ultimate takeaway from the whole experience was this" in the spirit of itai doshin (many in body one in mind), we will ameliorate our world via doing our human revolution in the name of esho funi (when you change, the environment changes). Everything was ultimately about Ikeda. Those Future Division (12-17) members deserved to have their weekends spent with friends, extracurricular activities, basically engaging in activities that will yield tangible and valid benefits like scholarship money, and creating more indelibly and auspiciously fond memories than spending time in a regimented, indoctrinating, and gratuitously effervescent environment where they are glorifying a Japanese nonagenarian whose allegations of malfeasance are quite extensive, lurid, gratuitous, and just plain implausible.