I'm in my early 20s and i don't have any close friends, not to mention ever being in a relationship and find it hard to maintain already existing friendships. I don't know what is wrong with me (I know this is entirely a me issue). I think maybe it is because in lacking in emphaty?

I find it hard to get to better know someone or try to make friends. When i do make new friends, we eventually stop talking and end up not contacting each other at all. This has basically been my social life throughout.

I don't understand how everyone else can text each other on the daily and make conversations. I don't text anyone at all. I think it is weird for them to recieve text from me all of a sudden and continuing the talk from there is hard. I'm pretty boring (I stay at home playing games and reading mangas) so i don't have anything about myself to share and i'm find myself enjoying the stories about other people's life.

And it's not like i don't want to hang out because believe me, i really do, but i find it hard to ask people out and prefer if someone could ask me out. This may be because I tend to overthink about if i'm too adrupt and rude because I'm asking to hangout all of a sudden and fear or rejection. If someone asks me out, i know that they want to hang out with me and would accept it on the fly without needing to think too much.

I feel like all of this can be avoided if i just put in more effort to be friends but i don't want to be a creep and overly involve myself with someone that may or may not like me.

Tell me, is this normal? Or am i broken?