Sometimes the smallest things can be the magic that brings everything together… the flash of gold leaf cornices on the peaks of painted ladies, staring into gates made of the sun and wondering about the hands that forged them, stain glass shimmering dully in the morning mist… only hinting at the glory to peek through later.  I’m not here to seek a small thing; I hope to find an exceptional soul to enjoy the smallest, largest, and in-between-est beauties of life with as we wander-forge new paths together.

I find it strangely frightening to be open about what I hope to find and what I have to offer. Will you think me too arrogant, too up front about my dreams and where you fit into them? You, the person I don’t yet know but who is the ever-fabled key to my double encrypted and utterly paradoxical lock? I’ve been hoping to find you for a very long time but I still don’t know where you are hiding— maybe it feels I’ve been hiding from you. I haven’t been hiding but I may have been invisible— traversing the landscape of my internal universe— and oblivious to your existence. Maybe we can find each other here.

Deep breath... :)

If I could have any life I wanted with my partner we would dedicate it to living in the fullness of our potential. We would use our efforts to make the world a better place, to solve problems that are hard but important, to help people suffer less and experience greater happiness, and to experience as much of the joy and beauty in this world as we can discover. I want to live a large and joyous life, using the gifts we possess to harness and create as much beauty as we can. I often wonder about the edges of our potential-- I hope you would explore all of them with me. This beautiful life is a fuzzy dream... I know what I want to accomplish with my work and that I want to do it with you. If we are together, if we are in sync, the rest of the picture must remain in impressionist fidelity until we collide. I want to dream together with you.

I am a brilliant, cheerful, kind, and curious (in every sense I can think of) person. Kind of your absent-minded professor type (if you multiply a bit) who can keep you entertained with deep conversation as often as you permit and who is always up to have a new adventure. I collect knowledge, experiences, and beauty in every way I can think of and hope to meet my partner for skipping down shadow-speckled paths in imaginary forests (ok, real ones too).

I am a niche instrument. Features include: endless curiosity and drive to understand people and ideas, deep compassion and empathy, endless agape, systems thinker, playful and more-than-occasionally silly, affectionate, practice love as a verb, easy-going, passionate, inspired and inspiring, ambitious, loyal, in integrity with myself as much as possible, helper of as many as I can, dreamer and solution generator, able to be fully present with you, interested in knowing you at the level of soul, and very grateful/appreciative of the beauty and gifts this existence offers. Limitations: I am generally terrible at playing relational games (esp. mind reading), I thrive in the conceptual but am helpless and hopeless when it comes to practical things (except in theory), strangely allergic-ish to the sun, I live in my head and my drive for cognitive stimulation can be a lot for most people, I don't know how to take things from concept to reality, I'm complicated, I naturally prefer reason/logic over emotion but I try to value them equally, I am a very divergent thinker, I do not understand linear processes very well, I am opinionated and probably stubborn, I'm allergic to being controlled (and not interested in controlling anyone else) I am forgetful but try very hard to keep my word, I can be oblivious to things that most people think are natural/obvious, for me things most people find hard are simple but things most people find simple can seem impossible.

Oh yeah, basic info that may be of interest: 47yo caucasian female, 5'3 maybe 140lbs (medium sized), attractive, INTP. I care much more about intellectual compatibility than appearance in relationships-- I'm not even sure that gender matters to me at all-- pretty hardcore sapiosexual. The qualities I find indispensable in a partner include: empathy, compassion, & kindness; practicality of nature (for I am limited here); sense of humor; patience; agape; ambition; desire to be of service; ability to take things from concept to reality; someone who is happy in the beauty of their anchor-ness and enjoys the loveliness that my unbounded soul provides; and someone who enjoys being deeply met and seen, who loves how much and reliably I will believe in you and support your dreams as you support mine, and who wants a true partnership of living-- a synergy of souls that makes us each so much more than we are on our own.

I'm profoundly gifted with synesthesias, somewhat eidetic/photographic memory, and a broad range of interests (can't think of much I wouldn't find fascinating, in theory). I research for fun but find good conversation even better. I am somewhat random/chaotic/ absurdist but I balance that with being pretty darn innocent, love-focused, and kind. I am aesthetically oriented when appropriate and am very sensual by nature when inspired. Hmm... it occurs to me that I may not know what people think of as basic information :)