I (41M) went camping with my brother and two cousins and we all ate shrooms. I ate 2.27 grams. I caught some wicked visuals like the rocks melting, rocks crying, trees dancing, lava monster in the flames and creatures in the fire and demon faces in the trees and rocks. Lots of demon faces. I also convinced myself that I was gay and came to grips with it during the peak. I came pretty darn close to just blurting out to the others that I am gay which I question.

Why? I thought that the way I was dancing, sitting, talking, walking etc were all gay. We were camping and I brought extra chairs and one of them was a rainbow beach chair and I thought everyone woudl think I am gay because I brought a rainbow chair. We were listening to trance music and I said, "I like the X-files" and i assocaited that with gay porn. I was convinced my brother was just waiting for me to come out and was whispering with my cousin "Should we ask him". I would call myslef an experienced user of mushrooms over the lsat 20 years but usually just trip once or twice a year. No more LSD for me as that ship has sailed.... No matter how hard the trip, I am always pretty good at realizing it is a trip and coming back to reality and stay in control. (Of course I did just pick up a rock and look at it for 15 minutes until my cousin snapped me out of it)

To add a little context, i am also into butt stuff/prostate play, When my wife goes out of town, I pull out the prostate wand and lube and go to town. i have also been know to get escorts, take ectasy/MDMA and have them peg me. It is quite fun!

When I think about kissing or showering with or sleeping with another man, it really doesn't do it for me. But then again, sex with my wife doesnt really do it for me either. Blowjobs from an escort on ectasy does it for me :) i do like the escorts to facefuck me with the strap on which is kind of gay... I probably have a porn addiction as well and jerk off exclusively with blowjob/throating/facefuking porn. I have never watched gay porn unless you consider pegging porn gay porn,

Anyways, not sure what I am trying to accomnplish with posting this but just wanted to get it off my chest.

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