... okay, I'm a bit embarrassed as I'm posting this. But MMC who are like this always have me on a chokehold. The part about him asking her to use him, I don't mean, like, they are in the bedroom and now he's trying to be seductive and is saying that-

It's more... angsty? Maybe? Basically, he has to be saying that because he's desperate and wants to keep her in his life even if it means she will only stay because he's of use to her.

To be fair, he doesn't really need to say that, I mostly want an MMC who, when it comes to the FMC, has NO dignity, no self-respect. He would get down on his knees for her, he would beg, without being embarrassed by it because all that matters is her. I want more than MMCs who are smitten, I want them SO desperate they would resort to begging and pleading. They have no pride to speak of when it comes the FMC

no matter how badly she might or might not treat, no matter if she doesn't feel the same, his thoughts should revolve around how he might have as much of her as he possibly could.

Also, just to be clear, when I say desperate, I don't mean, desperate to bone her or whatever. more like, desperate to just be in her presence and he would totally beg her and desperate to not have any self-respect anymore. It should be frankly, pathetic and make people have second-hand embarrassment.

another thing, he's not desperate and begging because he screwed up and needs her forgiveness. I am NOT looking for a grovel. it's just that because he's too obsessed but, maybe, she's not interested? Or she thinks he's the villain?

• I don't like particularly promiscuous MMCs, not am I a fan of Alphaholes (but I suppose my book request would automatically slash out this one)
• I like all genres and I don't mind YA. Spice or no spice doesn't bother me
• Not a fan of 'cheating' 'non-con', stuff like that.

Lastly, I AM SO EMBARRASSED. Please tell me I'm not weird for asking such a thing-