Most of the time I just put my headphones on and ignore people. I don’t really get panic attacks anymore like I did when I first started years ago. Sometimes when I go to adult nights I get really overwhelmed and anxious. There are lots is people there and it’s just like a whole different vibe and I often don’t know anyone. Or the people I do know ignore me. Idk I don’t jam skate so I guess I’m not cool enough?

Skateboarders, when I go to the skatepark, are often times more friendly and put me more at ease than rollerskaters as funny as that is.

Most of the rollerskaters in my area jam skate or rhythm skate so idk sometimes I just feel a little odd one out. I’ve tried to socialize before but they haven’t been that kind to me. I tried to join in with them when they were just practicing and Iswtg I got mean looks. Maybe it’s my toe stops? Idk.

I feel like I’m decent at skating but sometimes I wonder if I’m cringe for not sticking to a specific style and going against the norm. One time when I was a little bit more begginer I was practicing Arabesques and edges and this group of male jam skates started laughing and then doing mocking arabesques and copying my movements tho very poorly and he almost fell over. Maybe it’s a toxic masculinity thing. Tho I have received compliments on my more unique style. I guess like with anything you have to take the bad with the good.

Idk just wanted to vent. I really appreciate how supportive yall are on here :) yall always make me feel better about my skating.