Hello, reader.

I do have to wonder if receiving sought feedback will be improbable - maybe it's just a couple of other guys here browsing in despair, and bored observers. Still, I risk close to nothing, except maybe degrading my life karma by committing hopeless searches. :)

In need of a person to assist me with an overwhelming sense of helplessness and lack of control over my fate. Years ago, I failed academically, and since then I'm on mental disability. Always been and remain contrarian/controversial in my views (transhumanism, antipsychiatry, pro Covid-zero, in faith - agnostic), so I got into markets, and my main interest for a while has been in technical analysis.

If you are in it then you know how important it is to be in a stable state of mind, and for half a year I've been drowning in anxiety and panic attacks out of concern that my country gets (deservedly) unplugged from developed financial markets and I lose my only hope for a future. For context, I identified just in time ( - a day) most of index action during the time - the November 5 top in risk, mid-March and late-March turns up and down, the June 17 bottom - but my emotional state and fear prevented me from exploiting knowledge for profit (sure, I made some analytical errors too). Wish I had real support... And now if I don't make good time to pull myself out on my own, this all will be taken away from me...

Let me throw in some sparky quasi-intellectual glitter so that maybe an academic high-achiever girl passing by would grace me with online attention and conversation. I'm interested in connectomics, consciousness, neuroscience, programming, historical patterns, rare knowledge, understanding, but I'm uneducated. So much for attractiveness, I'm a fake. Everything is like an invisible glass wall around me.

Anyway, let's just talk. Conversation is all I need and relocation is an impossible dream. No mistake, reversal sounds like the kind of good fit, since I want to be taken care of by a capable person with initiative.

This text is literally begging for a wonder. But what do I have to lose?

Thanks for the read. Take care.