This will be a bit different than the most posts here so I'm not that hopeful about it and that's why I'll keep it quite short, but if you have any questions, don't worry about asking them in your message. I'm primarily looking for an online friendship but if it develops into something else, I'd be open to taking it further but for now, just a friendship :3

Even though towards the end of this year this will change, at the moment I'm a total boyfailure and NEET, and have been this way for a quite long time. I've been depressed probably since my teens, mostly because of the bullying I had experienced because of my personality and other issues, but nowadays I'm much better in terms of depression.

In terms of personality, as much as I nowadays try to hide it from the outside world and seem confident, I'm extremely emotional, soft, empathetic, naive and kind. I'm, unfortunately, not into men but quite attracted to most traits that could be considered 'masculine.' A couple of my friends in the past said that I'm an emotional savant, so I think I'm really good at understanding people and just helping them. I'm definitely a people pleaser, even though I'm not anymore, but that deeper desire to do everything to make someone happy is still there, but will kept hidden until I find someone that is worthy for it.

I'm quite attracted to people with strong personalities who are assertive and dominant overall (not just sexually). I don't really associate any of these traits with jobs, academic success or anything like that. What matters to me is personality and behavior, so you could be a total girlfailure, but as long as you have a strong personality, that’s what counts. I do like people who are controlling, possessive and demanding, caring, weird, and know what they want, even if they are just a friend.

I don't really go out that often, so most of my hobbies revolve around my room. I like to watch video essays, brainrot stuff, anime, read, shitpost, play games from time to time, philosophy, politics, psychology, cooking and baking, and I’d probably love cleaning too if I had someone to do it for them lol

What else should I say to make this more interesting and make people more eager to message me?.. Umm.. I'm not that honest in my daily life because I hide who I'm but with the right person, I truly would just say whatever is in my mind and how I'm; it's something I crave really badly. This is also kind of embarrassing to say but I'm somewhat inexperienced.. not somewhat, completely inexperienced.. Oh.. I'm a great cook and baker as well.. and even though I do plan on doing a lot of changes in my appearence in the future to look more feminine, I don't really look feminine at the moment.. I'm not going to get into kinks or anything like that at all because at the end of the day, I'm mainly looking for a friend but if you are into it, probably I'm into ti as well.

I think this is enough :3 If you're one of the thousands who will message me, I'd be really happy if you could introduce yourself, tell me a couple of things about you, and possibly share what caught your attention in my post 🐣