I don't know if this thread serves as much more than just me venting, but I feel lost and unsure what to do at this point.

Rocket League is easily one of my most played games ever, and to say I haven't loved this game would be ridiculous. Psyonix, if you're reading this, genuinely: thank you. I've met such incredible friends through your game, and there are very few games I could list that have brought me as much joy as what you've created.

I wanted to push myself to try to go pro. Hell, I still do, to an extent. I feel like I still have plenty I could learn, and I don't feel like I've hit my natural skill ceiling yet. I know I'm not the only one with that dream, but the further I progress, the more possible it seems. A year ago I couldn't hope to score a single goal against a grand champ to save my life. A month ago on one of my better days I went 7-8 against Squishy in ranked 1s. I don't want to claim I could stand among the pros just yet, but with time, I feel just maybe I genuinely could.

Recently though, it's been a struggle recently to genuinely consider Rocket League anywhere near as fun as it used to be.

And while I know a good few of you might roll your eyes at this, honestly? It feels like it all comes back to the car standardization changes from 2017's autumn update.

I was a Masamune main. I still am a Masamune main at heart. The car had a way of gliding around the map as if it were on ice skates, and even if it wasn't considered the most meta car--or even all that good--it was such a blast to play that I didn't care. I built my playstyle around that car, and I loved playing it even with all its weaknesses and shortcomings.

And as ridiculous as it might sound, I will be honest: I quietly dreamed of becoming a pro with that car as a way of showing the community there was more to this game than just the Octane, Dominus, Batmobile, and Breakout.

But that's all gone now. And for the past year and a few months, I've been playing Rocket League not really enjoying the game like I used to, naively hoping things would change back.

I don't know if this is my goodbye to the community. I don't want it to be. I don't want to give up on this game.

But I feel like I'm chasing what the game was, not what it is. And while what it is isn't terrible, it's not the game I fell in love with.

And so I don't know how to proceed.

While a part of me hopes that this post would somehow some way spark some discussion that leads to a movement that brings back the game I love, logically I realize that's... ridiculous.

So I guess what this comes down to is that while I don't want to just drop the game entirely, and while I don't know if I'll even drop the game at all, if that's where this is going, I just want to say:

To Psyonix

To the community

To all of you

Thank you.

Thank you for everything. Thank you for the joy. Thank you for the friends.

Be it with or without me, may Rocket League become the greatest Esport in the world.