I have a sexual abuse trauma as a child and I get so many triggers but I am suppressing this memory for years because I can't face it, I discovered this a year ago.

I was diagnosed with Bpd 6 years ago and I took DPT and I finished it in 7/2019, year after that I started having so many overthinking patterns that led me into taking antidepressants and right now I am suffering from it again and I don't know what is the reason? It's not a negative thoughts sometimes it's just work and random stuff that keeps me up at 3am after 12hrs of working! I started taking my sleeping pills today because I am so tired and can't sleep but please tell me what to do i can't seem to enjoy anything anymore!