hey 😏 how's it goin. 43M here. details would take forever and noone gaf to begin with so suffice to say, I had a shit childhood, shit adolescence and so far a shit life. contemplated $uicide but ultimately decided that, although it would end my suffering, it'd be damaging and counterproductive on a spiritual level...i.e. for my soul or whatever. maybe I listen to too many "mystics" but oh well. I've decided to finish out this miserable existence the long way.

I have PTSD. in my teens and 20s I was diagnosed OCD / schizo and pumped with psychotropic drugs. I hate people and I hate being around them so holding a job...uhhh yeah haha NO. the only "profession" I can hold down is as sign spinner for cell phone stores, smoke shops etc. bc I don't have to be around ppl. my monthly income is 700.

with that income I oc can only afford rooms for rent on Craigslist n shit. and now we arrive at the point of my post. these "landlords". they post these sugarcoated happy lil ads but once u move in u realize they're just selfish two-faced narcissist Boomer POSs who can't afford their mortgages so they need additional income. their ideal tenant would be a cadaver, unseen and unheard, who receives no visitors and essentially has no life.

been goin from room to room for years now. every single fuckin one of them are the SAME. if u inconvenience them in any way u get the "this isn't working out" speech and away u go.

God Bless all the ppl whose parents abused them and whose existence in this world is nothing but an excruciating struggle. God help me win the lottery too plz. I'll share it with my downtrodden forgotten brothers and sisters smh