Gosh I need to vent

I need to vent, I don’t have family anymore, and I don’t want to open up with my friends with this kind of thing because I messed up, I like venting to you all because you all tend to give pretty good advice or feed back. I will say I was an idiot, I own it.

So I got with this girl back in 2020, we were off and on until February 2023, I swore back then I was done with her but she came back and stuck around. We had a great spring and summer and most of fall. Something’s happened so she had to move in with me this past October.

Ever since it’s been kind of a nightmare, I know I need to get out of it but I just don’t know exactly how and I feel trapped. I get off work at night and don’t even want to go home anymore, I literally sit in my car and watch YouTube videos until she texts asking where I’m at.

I thought she worked and made her own money but she doesn’t, I make good money so I cover all the bills, the rent, my car payment, groceries while she’s been sitting at the apartment not doing a single thing all day. Her son is a good kid, I feel for him and he hangs out with me a lot and at times gives me this look like yikes, and I just laugh but don’t say anything because I’m not going to talk bad or voice my issues with the person I’m with, kid, it’s disrespectful and you just don’t do it. He’s the reason I feel stuck. I didn’t know she was like this when she moved in with me. She has to get a job but won’t. I am having a house built on 100 acres of land and I just can’t deal with it. For example tonight she asked me the name of the apartments we have but I don’t have the name and gave the address to her and she snapped at me and yelled at me for absolutely no reason.

I kinda lost it finally and snapped back for the first time tonight. I said I’m not going to be your punching bag because you’re in a bad mood and she didn’t know how to handle that. She blocked me. I know there’s two sides and the truth to every story, I literally stay to myself, I’m kind of a introvert, I use to be outgoing but I kinda changed years ago because of a medical issue I had. That leads me into my next issue, I had a medical issue one night and I had to go get seen, (kidney stone) I told her where I was going and all that, my phone died in the waiting room waiting to go back, 4 hour wait and I got a charger from my sister who’s a nurse in that ER I went to and called her and she started just yelling and screaming at me and never once asked me if I was ok or how I was.

She constantly screams and yells if things aren’t her way exactly or I do something that she doesn’t like, she controls the TV and won’t let me watch things I want to, I play games with my friends and she’s shockingly mostly cool about that, seems kinda weird she would be but anything else pisses her off. She’s like dr jackle Mr. Hyde, I work 10 hours a day and she wants me to clean the house, take the garbage out, take her dog out and when I get off at midnight she expects me to take her dog out and she will throw in my face she takes him out once a day when I’m taking him out the other 4 times.

She complains about the food I buy, I’m spending 200 dollars every few days stocking with groceries and that’s fine and expected but she constantly wants me to order food out and I finally put a end to that. I said to her there’s food in the fridge, eat that.

I’m utterly miserable, I don’t know what to do. I almost had enough last week over her threatening me and told her if she wasn’t happy she could go, I’d be nice and buy the U haul and let her stay until she found a place to go to, but I was done with being treated like crap, she then went from saying “I can go at a drop of the hat when I want, I don’t need you” which I never told her she needed me to begin with which was really weird she threw that out there, to saying “you’re just going to abandon me, I have a son and we have no where to go” trying to guilt trip me and saying I ruined her life.

I don’t know what else to do and feel trapped. I know this is only coming from my side but I wish I had a camera to follow me around to show you all what I’m talking about.

It’s non stop and constant. She told me before we moved in together she worked and all this other stuff and once she moved in it’s nothing like that. I am stuck and lost. Please give me advice or just let me vent lol. I feel stuck.