Hello Reformed. I was a very active Chrisitian before the pandemic. Used to go to church 3 days a week and was very much in love with God. I still do feel God's importance and the desire to please Him through acts of love, but recently it just hasn't been cutting it anymore.

With mostly everything being stuck at home, we have lots of downtime. My parents thought it would be a good idea to start our own church in their home (since we can't meet ours except for Sunday Zoom calls) and we've been having our own "mini services" in their house every day, singing songs and ending with a prayer.

At first I liked it, but after 2 and a half months of this, it's become little more than a chore I do to appease my family. It's not the logistics, my parents live one block away and I like visiting them. It's just that we're constantly doing the same thing over and over and it just doesn't feel special anymore. Church and Sunday services used to be something I would look forward to, and I would always make sure to keep my schedule clear/finish work obligations so I wouldn't have to miss it, but now it's become a tradition I dread ("Ah, man, it's 3PM again, time to walk over to mom & pop's" "Finally we're done again today.")

I feel this ritual is nowhere near as edifying as my past church attendance has been. It's repetitive enough to the point that I can go so far as to work on my phone (and it's programming, at that!) while singing the songs perfectly.

I've tried being as solemn as I can, trying to enjoy it and feel my spirit growing, but I've been having trouble in that regard. Anyone experience this?