So growing up, i developed at like 12. It was an interesting experience looking like I was 18 at such a young age. I definitely learned how the world worked for girls who looked like me very early on. I’m not a show stopper by any means, but I’ve always been built very well, and I have a pretty face. I could see in men’s faces they were basically undressing me in public, which did nothing for me. what really caught my attention was the reaction I got from boys my age, and a little older. It was almost like complete desperation, mixed with disgust almost? there were always made up bs story’s (some not) about things I had done with older boys, I always had a boyfriend. almost all the boys in my class, would stare at me, ask me about the stories, they’d want to know if I’d actually done what was being said, but, was disgusted and almost disappointed, but look like a puppy in love at the same time? I’ve never been able to understand what it is about it that I’m attracted too.