Hey guys, I didn’t know where else to post this and I didn’t want to tell my therapist because it embarrassing I guess.

I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 5 years and have also recently have noticed my interest in cuckold porn have risen aswell. Now without going into a lot of details, we were on and off again and again for years until recently, and through that time I thought we were good, but then started to notice her being distant and flakey, her friends outed her to me and I was grateful that they did. We are done permanently now and I’m still upset, I wasn’t extremely surprised, as when we were of and got to be friends again she did emotionally cheat on her boyfriend with me and just emotionally cheat, noting physical happened. Is my interest in this specific type of porn my brains way of saying no she’s still yours, she’s still here instead of excepting she’s gone for good now?