The light is warm filtered through my curtains,

I lay here tears on my cheeks of relief

Relief, release, refusing to give up the idea of you,

The tingles of hope and the full ache of sadness built up

Pent up, and cooped up and held back

Today I couldn’t ignore the damn thing any longer

I laid bare and faced the space the empty place in my basest desire

I filled it with thoughts and my warmed up chalice felt full

Full for the first time in ages ready to sip from and kiss

I thought of the princess or queen from a book I once read

How she was tended and attended to

I bare her resemblance in this fantasy and fruit was eaten and oil was soothed onto skin.

Nipples of chocolate and cream and heat of fingers licked

Tumbling thoughts erotic and out of that pocket of sunshine

The place that wakes up in my mind Of lovers and pleasure, what I treasure as I was fucked

The only reason was a complimentary light on me Sparking a whole load of joy

Lifting my hips and needing my body kissed over and over and over

Yes do it, yes Yes YES

don’t stop don’t you fucking stop

Faster and faster you fuck!

You fucker you knew I’d never recover

As fast as I can take it

the biggest euphoria for weeks

my mind taken from me

As you give it to me the way I always hoped but never knew.

Over and over it rolled through me till I called louder

Don’t stop

It’s the stretch of sinew and the edge of what can be

There on the edge of reason the best orgasms and the wildest thoughts

You drove me mad for a while

A good long while and my body thanked you

My tears sprang from the shaking sob of a woman who has been

You know, yes you know where I have been in my mind now.

The truth is, it’s you on my mind

The one who can turn me to a queen quivering with rage

Or sumptuously pleased with myself

For an hour or so I was royally fucked.

Ohhhh fantasy come and visit me again soon.

Giggle.