You can't make someone want you

You may wish they saw you

You may need them to adore you

But there's no way to force,

To make them stay, of course.

You may like the way they walk

You might get them alone to talk

Wanting to think of some revelation

To keep their coveted conversation

You can't make them read your mind

When they mistake it for being kind

There's no senses that detects it

When your body is defective.

Those shivers that you always feel

Whenever it gets so fucking real

The scent of cigarette smoke

That cannot be why you awoke.

The pillow is still empty, and cold

The heart was never yours to hold

There's no beard and no velvet

No unkempt trouser legs that felt it.

When you moaned into night air

And prayed upon the stoney stair

He didn't change his mind

He didn't know you waited.

You,

Waiting for a new kiss

Smiling from the wet bliss

To curl into warm arms

And turn into love charms

You cannot make, someone see

That the love, you gave was free,

Free from obligation

And lie with heat and perspiration it doesn't fit!

Because you did, you did, you did!

You did want confirmation

You do need his connection.

He knew you liked it, and felt it and saw it.

He didn't know you loved it and craved it and yearned for only him.

The one who chose this fate

The one who turns out couldn't wait

Was me.

I crushed myself with 'should-be' burdens

Starved myself with 'let's be certain'

Whipped my heart with 'I'm no good person'

And ate my own heart out with unspent gumption.

No one knows if you don't say it,

Love held back, just festers, Say it!

You should have told them right or wrong

You can't live without them one day long.

You cannot make someone love you

As long as there are stars above you!

There's only naked nerves and blushes.

The trembling words if he turns and crushes.

Stand up and show you're barely covered

No veil or armour between a lover.

There's no way to hide the mess,

I'm the biggest test.

For I do not practice, what I protest. Written by your Rose x