I recently had some things to celebrate, everything seemed to be going well, even with the world at large recovering from the pandemic. I planned a two tab solo trip on a calm day, using the fact that most flatmates weren't supposed to be in and my partner was coming in the evening.

Unfortunately, the situation flipped rapidly, when my landlord came in with a new flatmate, who was supposed to be moving the next day. They enter the house just as I swallowed my tabs and were there for the next couple of hours as I languished in my room having to keep as quiet as possible and pretend I'm not there. What was supposed to be a fun and celebratory experience turned paranoid as people knocked on my door couple of times. Also full bladder wasn't helping. And I'm pretty sure the new flatmate suspects I was in.

The trip itself didn't feel bad at the time, but was very egocentric. Rather than usual connection and empathy, I felt very strongly that I'm at the center of everything and the world revolves around me. Essentially, that I'm the only real consciousness and everyone else is just an artificial tool rather than a thinking, feeling individual.

I suppose it was caused by the threatening situation combined with a genuine ego boost from some recent personal successes. But maybe it surfaced some stuff I wasn't acknowledging.

Now, a few days later, I still feel the negative afterglow and generally like a bad person.

Has anyone experienced a similar egocentric trip?