I had a thought that gave me an odd perspective. I pictured ife as I experience it as a screen much like a CPU monitor. The screen presents me with pictures representing what life presents me with. The pictures can represent something physical or abstract. If I became angry then the screen would show a picture representing anger.

I originally was pondering about how anger is a tool that was encouraged through natural selection. This tool often overpowers some people and becomes a hinderance. Anger can be mastered to varying degrees. Some just want the power to resists it's control. Others to control anger with the utmost precision. I personally seek to be able to control anger. I see it as a powerful tool. A powerful gift.. This gift just has risks. I'm getting off topic. This was my thought process and the screen was just a construct I used to give my thought order so i digress. I just thought the thought was worth mentioning.

Newtions laws of motion is well know even if most don't know their label. One of the most famous is "For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.". This reference is more for how far a baseball will fly when you hit it with a bat and less about the definitions of action and reaction, but it is where it took my thoughts.

I always assumed I created actions just as much as I reacted to other actions. I don't know why I assumed I was the sole creater of my actions. I realize now I just get to decide my actions (or reactions) but the most inital parts of that process that ends with an action is not my creation.

I realized that there isn't any action at all until something is presented on the screen that represents what I experience in this existence. The screen feeds me an urge or a wanting. Maybe it gives me an image presenting immediate danger so I act, or react would be accurate. That's the point Im trying to illuminate. If hat screen stays black I don't act. I'm not even sure if I exist. The moment I wake up the first picture is usually light then a few minor aches. I react by sitting up and stretching.

Every last action Ive ever done and probably will do was preluded by something on that screen. Even my most random actions follow a picture on that screen. Whether it was boredom or the need to identify or just an urge to be random.

So I'm left pondering. Is it possible for me to have an action that is not a reaction. An action that generated by me and not that damn screen. I know I get to choose what my reactions are so it doesn't control me, but if I can't act until the screen populates something then it does have some control, probably a significant amount.

My answer as of know is that it's not possible for me to truly create an action of any kind. Yes I can throw the ball to let newtons law play out in all it's beauty, but can I truly take full credit for he throw. It was just what I chose to do when presented with a string of experiences.

This was just a random thought that popped up as a picture on my screen. I enjoy seeing life through many different perspectives and I like to share those perspectives. So as a reaction I wrote this.