Hi everyone, would anyone mind sending me a card/postcard/note w an uplifting message? I suffer from severe depression, PTSD, insomnia, and massive anxiety. Lately it’s gotten worse where I’m just about to find myself in bed bound depression again 😞 It’s been tough recently- I found out the guy I thought was my boyfriend was really just telling me things I wanted to hear so he could use me for his convenience. He was abusive, volatile, and just really horrible to me. He was physically “cheating” on me w multiple girls and emotionally still very in love with his ex. When I found out, it took me a couple months to finally have the strength to walk away but it still hurts sooooo much. I think it’s bc I never got what I wished/longed for - a long term relationship with mutual love and respect for each other. I could go on forever with the horrible way he treated me & just the messiness of everything.

What sucks the most is that I lost a lot of friends when I walked away- some who I thought were my best friends. Some of those lost friends knew both of us and turned their backs on me and others were my friends who didn't even know him but haven't been through a break up in so long that they'd tell me to just get over it and are annoyed that I didn't just "forget him" (good God, I'm trying to!! It just happened!!). I just feel like everyone hates me or I just annoy people. It’s been 1mo since I’ve isolated myself. It just broke my heart to learn my “best friends” were saying awful things about me; I felt so blindsided!

My mental health is crumbling; I don’t have helpful resources like access to good therapists and doctors. It’s frustrating bc although my state given healthcare is free (I’m unemployed & my shrink doesn’t believe I’m stable enough to work but won’t put me on disability either), Im limited to county teaching hospitals and it’s just ... let's say most of the time I'm just sitting there while they're trying to figure things out or come up with weird conclusions that later they retract bc they mixed me up w someone else.

Anyways, I was wondering if anyone would mind sending me an uplifting message. I feel so alone, heartbroken, totally stupid, fat, ugly, and scared. I’ve tried reading positive messages, tried affirmations, journaling, reading books on how to heal. Maybe it’s just that it’s so fresh & I lost so many ppl in my life so I’m still a wreck?

Thanks for reading my forever post! I’m grateful for being a part of this sub! ❤️ thanks guys!