This month has been a disaster. Super long story short- I’ve been broke and living off what’s left of my savings, I thought I was dating this guy I knew since high school. He treated me horribly but I had already fallen for him and couldn’t detach even though I really should’ve and needed to! He makes a lot of money but always had me pay. I bought him a super expensive Christmas gift early and when he got it, he dumped me... on Instagram. I spent Christmas alone and didn’t receive a single Christmas card or gift. That hurt.

Turns out this whole thing was just a “charade” to him and he’s over it. He just wanted someone to keep him company and fulfill his needs during this pandemic. I can’t tell you how insanely STUPID, humiliated, and soo hurt I feel! I know this is all my fault, so I guess I’m dealing w the consequences of my stupidity. I just applied for food stamps because I can no longer afford food after paying rent and bills. Ugh just feeling massively stupid and I beat myself up every day for being so foolish! Just thought maybe if someone sent me a card - not necessarily a Christmas card- it would help bring a moment of happiness, you know? Thanks for reading this guys! Please stay safe wherever you are!!