This is marked fulfilled just to make sure I'm keeping up with the rules, but please, if you see this and want a card, still PM me!! :)

So, at first, I drafted a whole post about my history regarding my own suicidal ideation, plans, and the stupid, half-hearted "interventions" of the school system and distant, emotionally unavailable parents. But I decided against posting it, because this isn't so much about me. It's about you! And I want to send you a card if you're going through a particularly rough time and need a reminder that someone out there cares, or to celebrate if you have reached a point in which you have conquered your suicidal ideation, or at least decided to put it off.

That was the best advice I ever got from the Suicide Hotline, I think. "You've got forever to be dead. What's the hurry? You could put it off until tomorrow, or for a couple of days," and then probably the most helpful piece of crisis intervention that I will never forget personally or professionally, "Suicide will always be there, you can always do it later." At first glance that may sound callous, but honestly...that operator was extremely proficient and sensitive to the fact that I need control over this. She wasn't telling me to do or not do anything. She was gently guiding me, providing me with options. She wasn't telling me I would decide not to do it after a while, she wasn't telling me to mull it over...just giving me the option to pause for a moment, in which I had the power to continue later if I so choose. Although that call took place three years ago, sometimes I think I'm still in that state of pause, not quite sure if I can commit to fully abandoning the idea...but at least still existing today.

I have 5 US stamps and 5 WW stamps (I wish I had more, but oh god my financial life right now is in utter shambles). So, please comment below if you want a card, and please include the comment if you are US or WW so we can keep track. Please PM me your address after commenting and if you would like me to write about anything specific, please include a prompt, otherwise I will try to just make it a generally happy/inspirational/potentially goofy card :)

Additionally, I will say that if you would like a card and you miss out after the 10 are claimed, please feel free to PM me and I WILL send you a card eventually!! I can't promise it will be this month, but I can promise I will do my best to send it ASAP!

Also, here is the link to the National Alliance on Mental Illness! And some important numbers: National Suicide Hotline 1-800-273 TALK (8255), NAMI HelpLine 800-950-NAMI (6264)