I feel selfish as all get out, really, but yesterday I went to the doctor and his hands are tied ha can't write pain meds for me, and the doctor he sent me to for pain management walked out on me. I have to wait until September 22 for relief and that is just being hopeful they can still choose to do nothing.

I guess to back track I suffer from a very painful disorder called Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome type 1 in my foot, and it could be worse so I should count myself lucky, but as far as pain goes, it is some of the worst known to medicine. I daydream of cutting my foot off, and have come close to setting it on fire thinking I would get better help and it couldn't hurt more. These next few weeks will be hard and I could use some encouragement.

I would make this an exchange except for I don't want to put the pressure on myself with the pain being so bad I will probably be tired a lot. I don't want to make promises I can't keep, but I would like people to write to as well, so if you want to try to exchange, I can send you something too.

I just want something to pull me out of bed everyday, and physically get me up and to the mailbox to check.

When and if my pain is treated better I will do an offer of some kind to give back when I can, I just have so little to distract me now. And so far to go, I don't even see how I can make it.

So just PM me for my address, or some of you already have it, I will take any mail I can get. You can give me your address if you like, too, and I will send what I can.