I've been having a rough go at it guys. And it's so personal it's so hard to talk about, been working through a lot of trauma which has been extremely eye-opening and honestly, it's been very refreshing.

17 years ago, when I was only 11/12 years old I was given oxy by my mother... Oxycontin is an extremely potent opiate... However I didn't really know what I was doing at that age, and my mother forced it upon me because I have no reason aside from she has always been a pretty sick individual.

For 17 years I was completely content in my addiction, content in the sadness and the trauma. Complacent. I woke up 3 days ago and told myself for the first time and my whole life that I am mentally strong and I deserve a better life. I started detoxing for the first time ever and I just want a different life for myself.

This year I would have been clean 6 years, but I fell down pretty hard. I was hoping for maybe some uplifting mail, I absolutely hate asking for help but I believe you guys could lift my spirits a lot. You're all very awesome and I'm sorry if any of this was TMI but I felt that being honest was the best thing to do.

You're all amazing, you are all wondrous, you're all worthy... Thank you.