I love hearing stories like yours. To know people like you exist. I'm 35 and from SEPA.

My wife and I were still dating she acted like she was super into fisting, pegging, femdom, the whole nine. Stuff I've been into my entire adult life. That honestly began around puberty.

As soon as we can get married all of a sudden I'm told It's disgusting or it's a chore even though I'm willing to do anything and everything that she wants, which isn't much to be honest... I'm actually in better shape than when we met manually physically emotionally, so I really don't understand what could have changed except for I was being lied to or she gave it her best shot and just couldn't get over whatever mental hurdles she has against it.

For the past year now I've been forced into just solo play while she's away. First, we had a verbal agreement that I would just tell her you know I'd like some alone time or at least a heads up when she would be coming home early so that she didn't have to be exposed to it.

Now I've even been getting in trouble for that. If she finds that my toys or any lubes have been used I won't hear the end of it for days. I told her I'm starting to get off on the shame kink as sad as that sounds because I know this is deeply part of me and I'm not going to give it up.

Now we have reached her current agreement that I completely keep any and all information about it away from her so that she doesn't have to think about it and she may plan to seek something outside of our relationship that's fulfilling to her since she equates me masturbating to infidelity.

Just wanted to let you know I'm proud of you for making these men out there happy with something that a lot could never even begin to admit that they'd like to try or enjoy.

Hit me back to chat if you ever bored. I'd love to hear some of your stories.