I believe I am dying.
I want to be clear; I don't have any formal diagnosis. I can't afford to see a doctor. But when something is wrong, you know. Something is very seriously wrong, and I can tell you for sure, it wasn't sexually transmitted...
If I'm right, then my life was short and very sad. I had one parent, have been in poverty my whole life, and I think because of my disability I have never been hired for a job that wasn't short-term. I got a very competitive formal education, however, and went to college on a miracle, and had friends; and I have dated and had sex, but all of that is gone now. I actually also have fairly active professional commitments, which I do care about. I am just too comatose to put any effort into the frankly important work I do.
I was just led on romantically for almost two years by an old friend in a very complex way. That was what kept me getting up every day. And like that, none of it had ever existed.
My sexuality is very simple. I like to give head. That's it. Sexually, I tend to like thicker and curvier women who can be a bit bossy, even harsh; and socially, I tend to get along much better with people older than myself.
I live with a disabled family member so I can not host, but I can drive. Wilmington, DE; Lancaster, PA are other areas I can travel.
If this is a one-time thing, that's all I need, but obviously if it were to evolve, that's even better. I just don't know how long I realistically could promise.
I am 6'0 and 230 pounds with brown hair. My main interests are music (18th century to 1970s); history (fin de siecle to 1992); and philosophy (India, Germany). Please be able to discuss one of these topics with a degree of nuance, as we'll need something to do "before, or after."
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