I'm not going to put my whole sob story out there in paragraphs, but I've had an extremely traumatic and unforgiving life. The kind people write movies about. I:

• have spent almost my entire life in deep poverty
• have experienced literally unbelievable employment discrimination and targeted local personal harassment over my gender identity, family issues, and other factors since I was 15
• live among the little that is even left of my dysfunctional family as they cope with severe mental health problems, and I may never be able to afford to leave
• have been in and out of stable housing since college
• was raped in childhood multiple times (committed by other children)
• have had multiple long-term partners tell me I have no sexual appeal beyond fetishizing me ("ogreish disgust")
• am a regionally-recognized composer and professional musician by trade

And much more. I literally just look like the bearded guy from the chad "Yes." meme with longer brown hair and the physical build of Jack Black in School of Rock. I'm six feet tall, chubby, and I'm hairy, and I'm nowhere near as feminine as I would like to be. But if I keep my clothes on, I'm actually not bad looking.

I am not bitter about the fact that I have been rejected by everyone I have ever expressed interest in; I am only bitter about the fact that this is because of the circumstances of my birth rather than having low personal potential, or even a lack of experience as a partner.

I obviously can't host, but I can drive.

I'm posting here because eating pussy is the only sex act I have ever truly enjoyed, other than verbal play and other various kink-related things. I am a deeply masochistic AMAB service submissive with a hardcore oral fixation. It would give me a lot of hope to be bossed around and degraded for a while, and to be allowed to beg to taste you. I don't want to sound picky but as I'd like this to evolve into something longer-term (though it is completely okay if not), I would ideally prefer another nonbinary/trans person with a chubby, BBW, or curvy build, roughly matching me.