I am quite insecure about my lack of sexual experience. I’ve never had a blowjob, and the one time I had intercourse was barely enough for me to consider myself not a virgin: a woman I briefly dated allowed me to penetrate her for all of 10 seconds before telling me to pull out. My involuntary celibacy—in the literal sense; I am not an “incel”—has made my interests more kinky, such that the experiences I have had have been…spicy. I am looking for a couple to help me with a specific fantasy.

I’m very into “forced” bi and twice have arranged scenarios where a woman encouraged me to suck a guy’s dick — one time with a professional dominatrix and one time through Craigslist’s casual encounters (RIP). I’d like to put a twist on that scenario where a woman agrees to have sex with me on the condition that I satisfy her male partner. She will play with me only if I first suck his dick, take it in the ass, and swallow his load. If I back down on any of those terms, I don’t get to cum. If I hold up my end of the bargain, I get laid.

Despite the strong cuckold/humiliation vibe to this fantasy, I am not into humiliation. I don’t want to be denigrated as inferior to the male partner or somehow inadequate for my lack of experience. I’m seeking encouragement, positivity, and a reward for pushing my boundaries. (I have never bottomed or swallowed another man’s cum.)

I’m not interested in kissing a man. Other limits include rimming, scat/urine, excessive pain, CBT, blood, filming, and anything illegal.

I’m 5’8 and about 150 pounds. I’d prefer to play with folks who are similarly height-weight proportional, and I don’t want to get involved with people who are cheating on their spouse without their spouse’s consent. I live in northern New Jersey and cannot host, but I’m willing to travel within an hour and a half, which includes NYC.

Outside of my sexual interests, I’m quite normal and personable. When I’m not browsing reddit personals or burying my head in law school textbooks, I enjoy baseball, going to the movies, and enthusiastically greeting every dog I meet. Send me a message with pictures and a little about yourself if you’d like to help me cross this fantasy off my sexual bucket list.