I, 49F 205lbs 5'2, first posted under a different username roughly 4-5 weeks ago. I wanted to try giving my first blow job. Started talked with a redditor, arranged to meet. He asked for NSFW pictures, he had seen a SFW picture of me.
Although I've lost 100lbs, still not confident in my skin and I freaked out. Deleted my account, without trying to talk with him first. I immediately regretted what I did.
I made a new account (this one) and waited the 7 days and made a new account. Trying to find the reddit redditor I was chatting with to apologize. He did see my post and reached out.
I explained what happened the best I could about why I did it. He seemed to except my apology and explanation. We even exchanged NSFW pictures (even though I was uncomfortable sending them, based on my own insecurities.)
We arranged a date to meet up and I booked a hotel for this coming weekend. We live roughly 2 hours apart.
Yesterday, he deleted his account without a word to me. While a little upset, I understand. I don't know if he just wanted to get back at me. It doesn't really make a difference, he has every right to change his mind.
It might not have worked out, but I still appreciate his willingness to be my first.
I'm not out anything, simply canceled the hotel reservation.
I'm just sorry that my insecurities ruined what might have been.
Thank you to everyone that reached out both times.
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